The 3 Colors of Love

First you have to become aware if the things you do provide or cost energy. I think I became aware of it pretty fast (Sure I still have know it even better). But than I started to get difficulties with inhaling because I didn't have a big variety of an inhaling repertoire, so it felt like inhaling the same air over and over again till there is no oxyen left. Fortunately I did have a friend I could talk about it and she helped me with it. She made the source for my inhaling problems clear to me. So it's not just important to know you repertoire of inhaling but also have a big one with lots of varieties as well.

I believe I learned from it. And I think that I'm pretty balanced now. I usually don't work or do stuff (that do cost me more energy than it provides for me) till I'm exhausted and I'm not able to do anything. But I also don't inhale (do something that just provides energy for me) all the time. I'm pretty aware of the problems such a behaviour will cause.

For a few months now I learned more and more about the difficulties a balanced life can bring along. Usually your life just pass by and you get the feeling nothing really is happening in your life or through you. You don't have big problems but it's just not life in all it's fullness. It just feels like a big „Blaa". A good friend of mine made a pretty awesome and smart suggestion. He said that I should bring myself out of balance on purpose because you naturally want to get back into balance. But rather than just to get back into balance I should than radically bring myself into imbalance again but this time do the opposite. For example first heaps of inhaling and than heaps of exhaling (or the other way round). He explained it to me with the picture of an engine. An engine which doesn't move won't bring something else to move. So to get this process started you have to bring an engine into imbalance. It is a pretty tough way to get your engine started. But I do know that it's worth it. And I will go on and wrestle it. But to inhale or exhale in a radical way you have to get to know when it is the time you are very close to empty and you are nearly too full of energy. Because it's impossible to inhale when you are totally empty but it's also impossible to exhale when you are too full. Nevertheless or for this reason it's also very important to plan your next step carefully. Because like I mentioned before we need to inhale and exhale. So if we don't plan our next step after a huge inhale or exhale, we will fall into the danger of inhaling or exhaling just crap like alcohol, porn or violence.

I'm looking forward to learn more about the whole process and bring it even more to a natural part of my life.